All about the health in 2021!

Starting this health journey might have been one of the best decisions I’ve done for myself in a long time. I guess you can say I got tired of being self conscious and lacking complete security within myself. I had got so comfortable being unhealthy that I didn’t realize the hurt I was really putting my body through.

I literally woke up in the middle of the night and started realizing that I wasn’t really living my life to its full potential. Sometimes we just have to shake the table and get uncomfortable to do the unexpected. Staying comfortable only gets you one place and that’s stuck! Which is exactly how I felt.

Growing up unhealthy…

I remember when I was a kid and I was heavier than most kids. I was the butt of all jokes especially amongst my family. Being bigger in my younger years really affected how I felt about myself growing up. It’s like when you become so accustomed to being unhealthy anything after that feels abnormal.

I can remember when I wanted to loose weight so bad I started weighing myself everyday and would literally starve myself just to loose the weight. I wanted to be normal like the other kids. My weight did fluctuate all my life up until I got in high school.

Back when I was in middle school in my Pe class. We were playing around like we were cheerleaders and built a pyramid. My ass was on the second to bottom row because I was bigger. I can remember thinking to myself “Why am I so fat. I need to loose weight!” I literally binged ate even when I got in high school. I lost so much weight but gained it right back.

That’s a whole snack…

My freshman year in college I was about 240 lbs which was the heaviest I’ve ever been. Although we are all grown and nobody stared at me in disgust. I knew I was big and I didn’t feel attractive at all. So during the time I took a quarterly break just to focus on working more because I needed the money. I started my first retail job working at Jcpenney’s. Also during this time I was on a weight loss journey. I lost almost 70lbs in 4 months and was waist training during that time as well. I wasn’t really exercising but I know me changing my diet completely had helped in amazing results.

I had completely gave up salt & sugar and put myself on a strict diet. Oatmeal for breakfast, a salad for lunch and baked fish, broccoli & brown rice for dinner. Having a cup of unsweetened greentea morning and night also helped boost my metabolism. Honey when I say I was looking like a delicious snack whew that’s an understatement.

I remember feeling so beautiful and loved. Guys couldn’t stop staring at me. Every woman I knew wanted me to be their fitness coach. That was the most confident I’ve ever felt in my life. I remember going back to college in the summer and somebody stopped me and their mouth completely dropped when they saw me. He was like “Girl you look soooo good, omg how did you do it.” It was at that moment I felt so accomplished. All my family members complimented my weight loss and I just felt so normal.

All Good things must come to a end…

Well we all know once we start getting distracted that’s when trouble comes. During this time I was dating my ex and he put me through hell and back. I couldn’t tell you a moment where I felt secure in that relationship. Also being in an abusive relationship can really mess with your confidence.

I started gaining the weight back and started back feeling unattractive yet again. Word of advice never put your confidence in your partner. Also never get comfortable and that’s where I failed.

I can admit that since then I have not fount that drive again to loose weight and stay consistent. I would do it for a week then give up. It had got so bad that I would fall into a deep depression that seemed so hard to get out of. I would consistently think to myself like “how the hell I go from looking like a snack to being back unhealthy?” Of course you can’t blame your partner for staying in a toxic situation and reaping the negativity behind it. But I’m saying this to let you know it can have a big impact on your health and your mental stability.

New year new me?

So now that I am 27 years old, I am at a point where I no longer want to feel sorry for myself. I no longer choose to make excuses as to why I couldn’t get healthy. You don’t want to be 5 years from now still stuck on what you woulda, coulda and shoulda done.

Time to take my life back and put me first. At times I would get so caught up in other people I forgot to put myself first. But hey I guess I can’t help being passionate. But I literally struggled to get to this moment mentally. It took me failing and failing again just to realize that I’m not happy or comfortable with myself.

Sometimes you have to remove those distractions that may be causing you to get off track and really love yourself. I love myself way too much to continue to kill myself everyday by stuffing my face with processed foods. Also loading my body with sodium and sugar. So going back to what I taught myself when I first lost all of the weight.

No added sodium, no sugar and I even started counting the calories I’m consuming daily. I put the scale away and instead I ask myself how I look and feel instead of basing my success off a scale. In the morning I make a delicious smoothie using unsweetened cashew milk & mixed fruit. For lunch I’ll have a salad with my choice of poultry which is shrimp because they have less calories in them then most meats. I know there is a debate about eating meat but as of right now I’m comfortable until I know I can fully take on the vegan lifestyle. For dinner I have a cup of brown rice , shrimp and sautéed spinach. I don’t use any salts or sugars in my food unless of course it’s the natural sugar from the fruit.

The first 10 days I kind of tried to see how I can get adjusted to this new lifestyle and what I Like and don’t like in my diet. Now I have a plan and can execute. Also starting my morning walks again with my sweat belt so we can add some mild cardio in there. But In all I’m in a happy space mentally and I’m learning to love myself again.

So put yourself first! We not getting any younger. Your health should be one of the most important things to you. It’s time to take it back! So what are you waiting for? Stay tuned to my next follow up in 10 days!